Written at a sad time in my young life, this poem may be quite sad to many people. It is about the consequences of suicide and what could have been...if it had been successful.
Two simple words I learned form my whole almost death experience...Love Life. Being so young I shouldn't have had to deal with issues like this, but it taught me a lesson, to live each day as my last. Makes everything worthwhile.
A dark and dreary day it could have been,
A funeral procession,
Heads hung in mourning numbers,
A young woman in infinite slumber,
Buried in rich red velvet and dark mahogany;
Her friends and family in agony.
They ask, "Why did she want to leave?
To go, and make us grieve?"
The thick gray headstone might have read,
Our daughter, Forever, we lay her to bed.
Then they'd walk away, weeping
And she'd just be sleeping...
That was the way it could have been,
After weeks and months, maybe ten
Years would go by, and someone would query
"Who was that girl, so young it was eerie,
That she would want to die,
Even before she gave life a try."
Or ask, "Think of her mother, what must she feel?
Does she still think if this is actually real?
Or does she wish her baby will still come home?"
Even though now her soul might roam
In the wide open world she needed so severely,
Despite the people she hurt so badly...
That was almost the way things turned out,
Death seemed the only way to go about
The confusion inside her heart and soul,
That pain added to all other hurts-the whole
Suffering-that came with the package.
All that bottled emotion turned to rage,
She found a self-destructive outlet,
Her way of screaming, but being quiet
Enough for no one to hear
Her pain, and all that fear
Of dying in that grotesque way,
Wanting to go, needing to stay...
That is not the way things are now,
She has learned, and she knows how
To feel pain and cry, letting it all go,
And float away with the breeze, so
She is happier, her mother doesn't ask "Why?"
Her friends don't wear black, marching by
Her grave, her family doesn't weep
At the memories they so painstakingly keep.
Now, all together they can sit in the sunshine,
Making new memories and laughing away the time.
She loves what life gives her, even if it invokes a tear
To form, she is glad to even be here.
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that was so good. i my self have been goin thru some hard times and because of this poem it realy makes me think more. i love it
Pebbles
Your poem was very touching because in March of this year my son who's 15 thought taking his own life wouldn't effct anyone until I found out and we seeked help. I printed this poem as a reminder for him. Thank you for writing such a lovely poem.
cricket
awsome poem ive tried to kill myself so many times but to scared to go through with it im here if you wanna talk.
Mel
I read your poem and it was great. I also read what the other people wrote before I took a vote and Leanna said basically what was on my mind. I like the fact that you were head strong enout to think that through and Im sure that was a huge accomlishment GOOD JOB
kayla
this was a very very sad poem. you are a great poem writer!
Holly
GREAT POEM! I LOVED IT!
Lauren
awesome poem. it really got to me. you are very talented. keep it up!
Eponine
This is such an amazing poem. I know someone who thought death was the only way out, the same thing happened to them and this poem reminds me of it
leanna
I've thought about ending my not so lived life (being only 16) once before, but i couldnt bring my self to do it. knowing how others would feel and how deeply hurt they would be, i could never rest in peace knowing how badly i hurt those people who actually did care. (believe it or not, there are people who do love you, even though you might not believe it sometimes, their there) but i have come to realize that life is to short beautiful to be worried about the past or the hurtful things people can say and do, or the emtiness you feel when no one is around, no one to be there for you when you cry or just need someone to talk. you just need to let go of the hard or hurtful past and keep it in the past, lock it in a box and throw away the key, forever, never to be un-opened. so for all those out there who are thinking about ending your life, or anothers, think about all you would be missing, all you've ever lived for and ask yourself this. is it worth it?
marcy
This poem touhes me because at the moment i'm feeling conflicts like the ones in the poem. I have tried to kill myself but can never manage to do it and it is also because i don't want to hurt my mother.
Christina
This poem really touched my heart it really shows how it is ithink this is a very good poem and i think every one should read it.
Carine
All I can say is wow. This is an amazing poem, it touched me so deeply. I sort of want to cry, it reminds me of myself too much. It's kind of creepy how much it affects me. I really love it! Makes you put in question everything i've done and I alwyas knew I had acted selfishly but this just proves it. It's excellent! Thank you and I love you!
Angie
Oh my gosh! This poem is just amazing. I have tried to kill myself many times before and have recently been thinking about it again. But now, after reading your poem, I realise how unfair it is to everyone else around me, why should my peace cause their sufferance? It isn't right. Thank you for helping me see the other side of my choices.
Samantha
hey, i attempted suicide, and I still have flashbacks, and I think about the same things to this very day. I wonder what might have been, so, you touched me more than you can know, I am still in depression and poems like this are what slowly but surely keep lifting me out of it.
TJ
this poem sounds exactly like wat i went through so thanx 4 writing it and lifting me up. xxxx
Angie
This is a VERY VERY powerful poem. Unfortunately I can relate to it really well as I have tried to kill myself before. Thank you for writing this poem and thank you for helping me understand that it would have been very selfish of me to take the easy way out by killing myself, to leave everyone else to deal with my lose and all the questions and curiousity. Thank You and I love you.
Jennell
Hey, Your poem really hit home base with me I could totally relate to it so yeah keep on writing!
Julie
Oh my Gosh! This is exactly how I feel sometimes. I just could never put it into words. Nice writing!
Leah
i can relate to this poem very much, im only 13 but im suffering from depression, sometimes i just get so frustrated and fed up with everything and i want to end it all but then i think about what i'll loose and who i will make suffer as much as i did(am)and i think suicide is the stupidest thing anyone could do no matter how bad the situation.One time i hit my hand on the wall and almost broke it out of frustration i had a huge bruise on it. thanks for writing this it made me feel a little better.
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