This poem is true. My father walked out on me, my sister and my mother when I was two weeks old, When I turned three, I started to see him about once a month. Now I'm 14 and I see him about once every 2 months. He never listens to me, and he babies my older sister. I've never spoken to him about how much it hurt me, and I guess I never will.
Daddy.
You were never really there for me.
You never really cared for me.
You listen very rarely.
I feel close to you barely.
Every thing she did was the most important stuff.
Every thing I did was never good enough.
You’re a very small man,
and that I will not stand.
You weren’t there when I needed you.
you always had something better to do.
I loved spending time with you,
but that seems to be the one thing you never wanted to do.
So now I given up, I just don’t care.
And when I’m asked about you, a good response is rare.
You don’t know how much I’ve cried.
You don’t know how long I’ve sighed.
I’ve learned lessons from you that weren’t good.
but I never understood.
I’ve learned to be conceded.
And uncompleted.
From you I’ve learned never to have a softer side.
And when things get to tough, to run out and hide.
I’ve learned to be cold, cold as cold can be.
Yet with all the damage you’ve caused you still can’t see.
You’ve torn me apart.
and that’s just the start.
You said I’m not that smart, that I’m really slow.
You said (not in these words) but basically that I’m a ho.
Thank god I don’t take after you.
or I don’t know what I’d do.
Unlike you I grew up.
My new fathers a man, while you’re still a pup.
He may be a dick,
but who gives a lick.
At least he cares,
at least he’s there.
I know these things sound mean.
But my pain will no longer go unseen.
I’ve gone though some changes, and opened up my heart.
But in my new happier life, you are still a part.
My new love for others and for you I will show.
But this pain in my heart will never let go.
I’m a young woman now.
That happened . . . some how.
I’ve learned to forgive,
but never to forget.
My memories of you are bad and sad.
But now in many ways, I’ve found hope. Even though it still hurts, I’ve
learned to cope.
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I really liked your poem. I am really sorry you have had such a horrible time with your father. I have never had that trouble with my father, but all but one of my siblings treat me like crap. It is amazing how your poem can touch so many people in so many different ways. Great Job!
Liza
I vote great way to express yourself. I thought I was the only one who went threw this, you have expressed my relationship with my father, better than I ever could! I am truely sorry for your pain, but grateful that you have learned to move on. I loved how I felt your pain, through out just reading the first paragraph.
patricia
the poem is great comes from u heart about u dad well love it touched my heart it made me cry cause my dad was excacly like that i love it keep up the good work
Christo
" "- I'm absolutely speechless. Fab poem, keep it up!
Kelly
THIS WAS AN AWESOME POEM! ME AND MY FATHER DID NOT SPEAK FROM THE TIME HE LEFT ME MOTHER WHEN I WAS 5 UNTIL I WAS ABOUT 14. I WAS RAISED BY MY STEP-FATHER WHO IS BEEN SUCH A BLESSING TO ME. HE IS RAISING MY 12 AND 13 YEAR OLD BROTHERS RIGHT BY HIMSELF, HE IS A WONDERFUL MAN. THIS POEM HIT HOME WITH ABOUT MY REAL DADDY, IT MADE CHILLS RUN DOWN MY BODY AND TEARS SWELL IN MY EYES, YOU ARE A GREAT! WRITIER
Kandice
This is a really good poem. My "Father" walked out on my mom an me when i was little bitty. Now I'm 15 an never see him. He don't pay child support and always talks about his other kids. But i also learned o cope cause my mother found a great guy and He is and always will be my Daddy.
Leighann
I must say, Katey well done for being able to open up and write a poem like this, I was very Touched by it, it is everything I feel and have gone through myself, I am 19 and my real father was never around when I was growing up, never there for birthdays or Christmas, but was for his other two children, but not me! I wish I had never meet him, lies after lies all they do is hurt you! your poem is so true to me and I really do feel for u and to know that there are others out there that have experienced the same as u, in some way makes you feel better, all I ever wanted was to be a daddy’s girl and I have never had the chance to be that, only a Mummy’s Girl, I have not had contact with him since may this year and I can start to move on, and forget. Katey all I want to say to you is, I know it’s easy for others to say But u don’t need him, you have your mum and she is the only one who we will ever need.
tiarra
this poem really touched me . i can almost relate to it but my dad was never there i talked to him when i was i think 11 that meant so much to me. i understand how you feel. If you need anyone to talk to I will love to because all my friends have their dads in their lives if they dont its a father figure. thanks for writing the poem. i mean that alot
Jen
Absolutely amazing your poem expresses to a 't' how I feel. Thank you so much and I will be sending it in my father's day card. Best wishes and again absolutely amazing. God bless!
Kacie
omg, your poem made me cry. it's amazing how you expressed your feelings, i always seem to hide them. my dad is a drug addict and i still have problems with him. thanks for your poem, it really helped me to find hope for my future.
Krista
I loved that poem because its how i feel about my dad. He can be a real dick. I love my dad like always I just don't like his ways.
Daniella
That poem is so true, That really reminds me of my father also. Good work on that poem. Im just now starting to feel like your starting to (confused) but really really good. see-yah
Shannon
I liked this poem because it kinda describes what i am going through, except for the part about my mother being with someone else because she isn't and she doesn't want anyone or any guy to hurt us anymore.
mincie
Awsome poem.
Brittany
This poem really touched me becasue I have the same problems with my father. I had thought I was the only one you had that bad of problems with their dad but I guess not. So I thank you for wrinting this poem to open up not only my eyes but our fathers and other girls with the same problems.
jillian
this poem is like a biograpy of my life i love it
ashley
i really like this poem i mean it fits my daddy so much. He is in jail and he never relly liked me that much and i never understood y but katey u did a great job on this poem and im hoping that it is a false one for u~~~ Great Job Girlie Love Ashley**
angie
wow is a beutiful poem,,is the same way i feel for my dad give you *****stars keep up the good work.
sierra
I'm 13 now but when I was 8 my dad walked out on me,my sister,and my mom. It broke my heart because more then anything i wanted a family. That night everyone was fighting and he just packed and left. Within the next couple of months he came around every few days. But for the last 2-3 years i haven't seen or had anything to do with him I haven't got a birthday or christmas present for about 3 years. But i live with just my mom and your poem really described my current situation*. And it was really good.
Britney
I am the same age as Katey and i loved it I think she should move on to being a real poet if not! I just think it waz FANTASTIC!
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