About the Poem
This poem I wrote when I found myself falling in love with this man that was so beautiful and sweet to me when I was with him, but could never love me beyond his bed.
I misinterpreted his emotions and let my heart melt into his thoughts and saw that it meant nothing. He made love to me and then walked away with no emotion, time after time, and still I continued breaking my own heart, in the process of trying to keep his interest and keeping hope that he could love me. I finally had to realize no matter what I did he was using me and would never love me like I did him. I let his mind-games control my life and found myself living in too much of a fantasy that I created in my mind and I finally awoke when he said "I'll always love you as a friend."
Those words broke my heart and finally I had to let go.
Making Love To A Friend
|by Amber White|
|You were always so perfect to me,
so soft and gentle,
cherishing you instantly,
without a second glance,
I never distrusted those eyes,
that lied to me continuously,
I promised you I'd always try,
but slowly you were losing me.
I would always have given you anything,
just to keep your interest,
stopping my heart from remembering,
all the pain you caused,
I never pulled away from that kiss,
that held a painful hint of truth,
Maybe you'd be too hard to miss,
so I said I was still in love with you.
I wanted more than just the infatuation,
that you found in me.
You said love was only a distraction,
that you really didn't need,
so I cried myself to sleep,
knowing the times we shared must end.
You couldn't let emotion run deep,
you said you made love to me, as a friend.
But eventually, my love,
friendships fade, too,
and I can't make love and walk away,
pretending I don't love you.
Never once did I push you away,
but everything comes to end,
so all that's left to say,
I loved loving you, my friend.