I am only 16 years old and I feel that I have been through way too much for my age. Some of my decisions in life have affected me forever and I feel that poetry is the only way I can express myself.
Everyone plays the fool at times-unfortunately I learned a very hard lesson at a very young age so here is my story.
When we first met I made you promise
you would never leave,
then I told you of the demons,
and how they made me bleed.
I made you promise crazy things,
but your words were not enough.
I couldn't believe you loved me
I thought to love me was too tough.
When I cry about my past
and say that I'm ashamed
I know I am the only one
who is to be blamed.
Then you crawl in bed beside me
and say that it's ok-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.
When I can't sleep through the night,
when I toss and turn in bed,
you wrap your arms around me
and chase the demons from my head.
You say don't talk about the past
you tell me that it's gone,
you say since we're together now
it's time that I move on,
you say that I'm your angel
but if you only knew
the kind of thoughts I think
and what I used to do.
You tell me it doesn't matter
and that you love me anyway-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.
They said that's how they liked it
when I dragged my nails across their backs,
but now you hold my hand in yours
and tell me to relax,
you say that this is making love
and this is the better way-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.
I never felt a thing
before you touched my heart
and when you touched my body,
I thought I'd fall apart.
When you kiss my lips,
I feel you deep within my soul
then you wrap your arms around me
and say you'll never let me go.
When I tremble at your tenderness
and melt in your arms,
I know you really love me,
and you'll keep me safe from harm
you know I've never loved
or been loved in any kind of way-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.
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I thought this poem was truely amazing. I could connect with it on so many different levels.
Cara
i love this poem it makes me remember how that same thing happened to me but now im engaged and madly in love and i know what its like to love and be loved its a great feeling its nothing like the loss of my innocence and i will never forget this poem
Nicole
This poem was sooo great! It touched me on about a million different levels. I really think that it's important for people out there to know that this stuff does happen and it does leave you broken and not too much can actually help mend it. I loved it a lot and I plan to share it with all of my friends. It gives a great messege out there and I'll read it all the time!
Flor
This poem really hit home for me. It was like it was written for me. Like I was the one writing it. Like I was the one that was talking. Somethings are different ofcourse but it's basicly the same story.
Shontelle
awsome poem! absolutly loved it! im at school and should be doing my class work bt who cares this was much more interesting!
C.J.
I loved ur poem and i hope that u keep writing. I still have my innocence and i plan on keeping until the right guy and the right moment comes. i feel srry for u but keep writing.
hilarie
this poem was amazing it truly made me think and it melted my heart, dwelled into my soul. i can really relate to it. its truly amazing when you find someone who makes you feel safe, and who loves you enough to make it posssible that you dont suffer as much from your past. I LOVED IT! keep writing, and try to post more stuff!
nathan
i loved it something says you have alot of changing going on and it sounds like a poem someone older would write
missy
It was a great poem, it matched me alot, i loved it. i would love to read more of your work
jazmyn
i too feel i grew up too fast. been with too many men, know things i shouldnt.
lanna
your poem was just so real to me i am actually speechless its so hard to find love not just the word but true meaningful love that turns you inside out. Your poem is just beautiful and inspiring I am at a loss of words so please forgive me for not saying more.
Shelby
I've been through alot also, this really touched me deeply.
neomi
i do like it and it was good to me so keep up the good job and keep doing you thing jave a nice day
cassidy
that poem was really good i enjoyed it alot. it takes a good person to addmit all that stuff.
catrina
i have been through the similar pain that you have and this poem made me cry. i too write poetry and this is one of the best that i've ever read. beautiful, thank you
Carolyn
Your poem touched a place in my heart because I know that I've expericed many losses of innocence. My innocence was stolen from me when I was a little girl and I still have emotional scares at 20. I am so sorry for your loss and I just wanted to let you know that there is someone out there who can relate.
Chrissy
This poem was very good and brought tears to my eyes.
Lightning
IT WAS AMAZING CAPTURED MY FEELINGS EXACTLY. I LOVED IT. the author is a strong person. i admire her
Chris
omg. i can relate 2 this poem and yes i express myself thru poetry also. it made me cry i've been thru hell and back and at the age of 13 i had my daughter and this poem reminds me of that
Brock
thanks for writing this poem. its helped me alot with this project im doing in english. its a beautiful poem
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